Sometimes

Sometimes i feel like there is no real purpose for being here.Sometimes i feel like im just a burden and that i have nothing to offer to anyone.Its times like these when im at my lowest.These are the time that the enemy attacks you with everything that he has in an effort to win you over.I dont want that to happen and quite frankly i wont let it happen.Yesterday at first i felt really tired and kinda thought that i shouldnt even be here.Then something just kinda sparked in me and began to motivate me.I dont know what it was or where it came from it was like the Spirirt of God just came over and took me in.I began just making people smile left and right telling jokes sharing stories long and short hahah.It was an enjoyable time again.Hmmm i guess now i have my answer.God gave me an amazing gift i have always had but never really used it to its true potential.I have the gift of laughter the ability to make people smile and laugh almost on command.I look down on the faces below this post and i found what makes me smile.My friends, they are so awesome and know me so well that we can just talk about anything really.We grew up together and shared memories with one another.And i was thinking why havent i done that with anyone else.I mean i really havent opened up to anyone really but Trevor but even then it feels like im holding back some things.I think i need to be more open.So this week begins a challenge for me.To be more open.I will see some of you guys at class tonight.

Doing nothing

Yea just sittin around doin nothing as usual.But hey im kinda bored but hey its not so bad.

Fun and Games

Went with my Trevor yesterday to Starbucks.It was fun we had some guy talk you know about girls and politics and some othe things that we just touched up on.It was a good time of just awesome fellowship together.Then we went to the arcade and played all these awesome games it was super fun.I just said super but its ok.I had a blessed time with my bro! maybe next time some of the other brothers can make it out htere with us.

ugh

today has been the worst.i was so happy at the beginning only to fall face first.this has been the first day in awhile that ui woke up happy.and it turned to be the worst days evar!!! so dumb.oh im sure there is a reason for this but sometimes i feel so blind.what if what God was trying to show me was right there and i missed it? sometimes i feel so stupid and useless.but i know better.i have a purpose.Lord im sorry for my lack of faith.i am weak.forgive me.