Sometimes

Sometimes i feel like there is no real purpose for being here.Sometimes i feel like im just a burden and that i have nothing to offer to anyone.Its times like these when im at my lowest.These are the time that the enemy attacks you with everything that he has in an effort to win you over.I dont want that to happen and quite frankly i wont let it happen.Yesterday at first i felt really tired and kinda thought that i shouldnt even be here.Then something just kinda sparked in me and began to motivate me.I dont know what it was or where it came from it was like the Spirirt of God just came over and took me in.I began just making people smile left and right telling jokes sharing stories long and short hahah.It was an enjoyable time again.Hmmm i guess now i have my answer.God gave me an amazing gift i have always had but never really used it to its true potential.I have the gift of laughter the ability to make people smile and laugh almost on command.I look down on the faces below this post and i found what makes me smile.My friends, they are so awesome and know me so well that we can just talk about anything really.We grew up together and shared memories with one another.And i was thinking why havent i done that with anyone else.I mean i really havent opened up to anyone really but Trevor but even then it feels like im holding back some things.I think i need to be more open.So this week begins a challenge for me.To be more open.I will see some of you guys at class tonight.